Tbh: Nobody “knows” me. I don’t know me. I don’t know if it’s some kind of identity crisis, but I wish time would stop. I feel like I missed out on so much, I feel like I just watched the days go by. I feel like I haven’t appreciated anything. Like I took it all for granted. They say “Life is short, Live it” , but then say “it’s okay there’s always tomorrow”. So which is it? I have no idea of a career I want to pursue, I have no motivation or passion to pursue anything to be honest. Tell me, can I live my dream? Can I move from here? Can I move forward? when I feel like I been trying to leave but ended up at the same place. I have no idea on how to even start my life. Where would I go? Who will be with me? What will I do? When will this happen? I act like I have goals, but honestly I have no idea on dealing with life. I just shrug it off and get lost in my thoughts. I understand fake tears will hurt everybody else, but fake smiles, you’re only hurting yourself. So, why do I that? Why do I pretend everything is okay, I preach about positivity and letting go of grudges, but I can’t even take my own advice. I act like nothing phases me, I act like my problems aren’t there, but as soon as I’m standing alone. It dawns on me “shit, what am I going to do? What am I doing now?” Reality. they say, but what is “reality” some people are struggling to live, while some people are rich for nothing. Some are born with privileges. Some are born with burdens. Some people dream big, just for it not to succeed. Some catch a lucky break. Some are born , then die exactly where they stand. I’m lost, for most of my questions have no answers. Basically I’m confused & LOST.